Saturday, January 13, 2007

I have Internet again!!!

Well its been a busy couple of weeks. The kids had a good trip to FL to be with their dad. I missed them horribly, but managed to stay very bust, despite my lack of Internet! They're back home now and I'm really glad that they are. I didn't blog much during the time that they were gone, due to the lack of Internet. Now I need to get back to blogging and being responsible to my online duties.

We've started back with school and volleyball and co-ops this week, which has kept me quite busy. I've also gone out a couple of nights and had a good time with my friends. I'm getting better at shooting pool, as a general rule. I also spent a lot of time getting to know myself and deciding what I want for my future. Some of this will come out later as I have time and now children reading over my shoulder! I know that I want a larger house that has room to have my own pool table, since it gets expensive to go out to play pool on a continual basis. I'm also re-assessing my work situation, and I'm not sure what I'm going to do in the future, however I suspect that the kids will go back to school in the next year or so. This is something that will be discussed with them in detail, before any final decisions are made, but I'm struggling really hard with the balance of schooling, working and having a life for myself. They are old enough that I should be able to have some sort of life outside of them, at least part of the time. However, they are still my primary concern and I will always put them first. I know I want more than what I have at the moment, and I will find what is right when it's time.

I've been going back to church more regularly and am realy enjoying my classes and the friends I'm making there. DivorceCare ahs been very good to me, and I've met a lot of great people there. I will continue this class at least through the spring, but beyond that I'm not sure. I've also started attending the Contemporary Adults service on Sunday mornings, where several of my friends from DivorceCare go. Its a great class, and is like a small service, instead of the huge one. So it is bvasically a small church within the church! I love it! Starting next month, I'll be attending the Living Single class on Saturday nights, which I hope will also help me in determining what I want for my future.

I have met many interesting new people in the past 6 months, and pursued some friendships that were more acquaintances before we moved. This too has been good for me, since single friends were not what I had a lot of before the move. However, as life changes, so do friendships evolve and grow. One of my friends from DivorceCare sent me an e-mail about a singles group for people our age in Phoenix. I'm thinking it might be an interesting event to attend and see what it's all about. I'm not sure yet, since it's relatively expensive to do, but if it's fun, then I might do the monthly, rather than the per event plan.

Last night I went out with my friend, D and saw his DS's band perform! It was quite interesting, but I don't know that I'll ever attend another modern heavy metal concert in my life! Yikes the mosh pit scared me, and there was no place to sit and it all sounded like noise, not music to me. After that we went and shot a couple of games of pool with his sister and her BF. It was a lot of fun, and I was still home by midnight! D is a nice guy, and I enjoy his company, but we're just friends and that's how its going to remain for quite awhile. He has some issues, which he admits, he needs to get sorted out and I have my own issues that I need to resolve. So although, I'll go out with him, its not going any further at this point in time.

My friend, E got our DDs tickets to a Christian concert day at Castles & Coasters today, so the girls are there having fun. His DD will spend the night here and go to church with us tomorrow. Then either I'll take her home or he'll pick her up.

J comes back tonight, and I can't wait to see him and quit babysitting his car! It really hasn't been a problem, except for the fact that I've never really used a garage before, much less with 2 cars. I'll be glad to have my entire garage back for my car tomorrow!

I need to quit rambling now, or this blog will turn into another unpublished blog, where I jsut sit and type for hours sorting out my head. But at least you all have a little update and insight into my life! I imagine this is going to turn into quite a meander over the next few months!

Thursday, December 28, 2006

I AM Alive...Sort of.... lousy time to attempt serious quitting, however I did learn that I can do it!

I'm still around, and back to soking...I pcked a really I will make a more serious attempt shortly into the new year, but I'm not ready to attempt it right now. I'm also still primarily offline, aside from work for the next few days, due to the fact that I'm using borrowed Internet access! However, I'll be attempting to check e-mail at least once a day!

I've moved and am in my own home now, and I am having tons of trouble getting my phone/Internet/Cable hooked up, so that's what the issue is! I hope to be back soon with tons of moving horror stories. I'll post again as soon as I have something more exciting to report!

Friday, December 22, 2006

50 Hours sort of

I almost made it to 2 days today, but I slipped and had 4 drags off a cigarette around noon today! I'm right back on the trying to quit, but I'm not sure how much longer I 'm going to hang in there. I'm really frustrated right now, and may just give up until I can get into the hypnotist. I'm going to continue trying, but if I slip, I slip!